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Resonates with me, because at times I just wanted something to be light and to work without struggle or being difficult. To just cut me a break so to say. And then when it didn’t work it’s like realising that being a grown up sucks. That’s kind of depressing.
- Being a school kid in class, all of us watching TV to see the first teacher go to space and seeing instead her death as the Space Shuttle challenger exploded.
- Being from Massachusetts, watching the Red Sox world series with my Grandfather in 1986 and seeing the ball go through Bill Buckner’s legs.
- Not making the high-school basketball team as a freshman because I was too short. When I graduated I was 6 feet 2 inches.
Being medically disqualified for flight. I worked towards the goal of being a military aviator for over a decade, only to find out that my objective depth perception wasn’t good enough. I almost went blind on two occasions before then, was one of the first in the country to get a new kind of corrective surgery to get to perfect vision, and never had issues with depth perception (could accurately determine distance out to about 6 miles, +/- about 50 yards, verified on radar). All of that, only to find out that because of the first event that almost blinded me as a child, my brain didn’t develop objective depth perception the way it should have. The test where you’re given a page and told to pick which circle pops out looks the same to me.
I honestly don’t know if I would change anything that I did had I known sooner, because I did still get some positives from my time in the military (along with plenty of health issues), but it definitely would have given me pause.
The death of Anthony Bourdain shook me hard. I found him to be a very inspiring figure.
The first time I got a Facebook account banned. Looking back on it I don’t understand why I was so upset, or why I didn’t see it coming. I was a prolific troll, but my shitposts were in fact shit posts.
Close second would be the first time I bricked a computer. (It wasn’t mine, btw)
When I was like 10 years old I deleted system32 on someone else’s computer, because it was taking up space and they needed to clean up the drive, and some random google search troll result said to do so 😅
I did something similar once to my own computer as an adult. I was trying to uninstall dropbox, but for some reason I forgot that there is an uninstaller tool for that. So I searched for all files with Dropbox in their directory, selected all of them, and deleted them.
Unfortunately for me, well, you know how you can select a folder to sync to Dropbox when you set it up? I apparently somehow selected the user folder for that. Which caused the files for almost everything being displayed on screen to have Dropbox in their directory. And that meant I was deleting all the non-essential files (as in everything other than Sys32) on my computer.
The only warning I had was when the number of files marked for deletion passed 100 gb. I stopped there and checked my work, but I couldn’t see any problems with my method at the time. My poor computer’s screen went black while it worked to delete EVERYTHING. I didn’t realize what I had done until the screen turned back on and showed an empty desktop.
But at least I could finally reach 10 fps while running Minecraft!
When I was a kid, I was in band class. We were having an end of the year big concert and my parents were coming for once. I was first chair and had a fun part in one of our songs so I was really excited to get to play for them for once.
Because of my excitement and my being just a kid, I was bouncing around and the neck strap for my saxophone broke. I played tenor and there was no way my little hands could hold that thing up for a whole concert, so I was pretty much booted from the concert last minute. It broke my damn heart. Even thinking about it now makes me teary. All that hope just quashed because of some dumb mistake.
Good news is that the band director did me a solid and let me walk out with my case to rest my sax on beside my chair, but the damage had already been done.
When after investing time on try learning something I realize that i am still inadequate and below standards. So the heartbreak to be less that a functional human.
What did you try to learn?
To basic skills like how cooking an egg to try learning a language, maths, or something that needs to learn instruction and follow rule and logic.
One great thing about society is how it takes all kinds. We all have our long and our short strengths. And when we’re all thrown into the mix, we get here, on Lemmy for example. You’re obviously skilled enough to get here and communicate your perspective.
Whether you’ve found it yet, you have a role to play. If you haven’t found it, keep poking away. It will reveal itself. There’s lots to be done.
Good luck.
Thanks, well probably not will be happen but I can live with this heartbreak and I do from a lot of time. Actually I think society is full of people like me, with no skills at all and without hope to get anywhere in their life. Communicate here is great btw, still not enough to give me something irl, at end of the day I don’t have big wishes that just keep be feed and healthy.
I enjoy doing things that I’m not very good at, particularly in light how long I’ve been at it. But I do it for myself and my own pleasure. So I stay at it and continue having fun. Don’t be too hard on yourself as we’re all headed into the unknown. The only thing a boat’s wake tells is where it’s been.
https://piped.video/watch?v=2L22C5IJTfE
Have fun, amigo.
I am probably overstating this a bit, and I am sure other stuff has hurt more at points, but I am still pretty upset about the Star Wars sequel trilogy. I had been waiting for them essentially since I was a kid in the early 90’s, and I am annoyed that I allow them so much headspace. But it kind of ruined a lot of what should be an exciting time period for the franchise. They could have kept the same cast for TFA in the same roles more or less and just not done stupid/lazy/cynical/reductive movie and it would have been so much better.
JJ starting out by essentially wiping the table and trying to redo the OT basically fucked everything from the start. I am finding myself less and less interested in the current stuff as it tries to find a way to set that garage up and relatively explain it. I didn’t take like the paperwork when they came out, and to be honest they are still kind of objectively bad, but they were additive and they felt like Star Wars, the new stuff is just lazy crap.
I felt like people thought I was taking crazy pills when I said TFA was mediocre at best. Friends thought I was sexist cause it was a female lead or I was expecting too much for a children’s sci-fi film. I rebuttaled with Rogue One was awesome, with a female lead and a storyline that was great for children and adults. The only criticism I had for it was they had one or two too many characters and made character development weaker for the main cast. Otherwise, an amazing movie. Everything that followed after TFA was just hot garbage. Unnecessary hate was thrown at the actors unfortunately. The writers, producers, and director are to blame for the hot mess that is the sequel trilogy.
How on earth is TFA too female led? Han Solo, Kylo Ren, Poe… it’s not even “female led” let alone “dominantly female”, and even if it was that wouldn’t make it inherently sexist.
The day I found out they no longer make or sell Big Ed’s Super Saucers. I miss those fuckin’ things so much… 😭
Reaching out and being ignored.
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We… said we wouldn’t bring that up anymore.
Watching my child cut themselves repeatedly for years because of undisclosed abuse from the man I was once married to.
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This is one of the biggest reasons password managers scare me
I go with a standalone desktop password manager and make sure to back it up once in while, especially if there’s no email linked to a new account. If I update my email password, I always immediately back it up.
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What’s the 3 2 1 rule?
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Oh neat, thanks! I’m gonna have to start doing that
A few years ago I was trying to get into building my own small systems. I had successfully created a NAS and a Pi-hole (not exactly rocket science) and my next project was going to be a Hackintosh. I bought a $500 Chinese NUC (Lattepanda) and somehow managed to install Catalina on it and managed to run it (which was crazy to me since it had required some iffy config that I didn’t think I’d be able to get down). I then went through the trouble of building this thing into a suitcase so that it was a “laptop”, though decidedly bare bones. The next time I powered it up, it promptly burned through something, powered off, and I now had a ~$800 suitcase brick.
That one slapped me down so hard from my techy fantasies that I put away my tools and never touched another project again. My NAS & Pi-hole also stopped working after a few months, and I decided that that was enough of a sign from the universe that I wasn’t meant to be wasting my time, money and effort on something I was decidedly not intelligent or strong-willed enough to see to fruition.
I was also hoping to make it my “out” of support work which I’ve been doing for almost two decades. But with that project died my dreams of being able to rise above my own limitations as well, since I’ve repeatedly proven to myself that whenever I try my hardest at something, I’ll simply still fail eventually.
Death of Chester Bennington, ending of Adventure Time series, slowly forgetting my childhood.
Several. I’ll keep it to three.
One, was having to move out from my home state, twice. I have my fair share of criticism for some parts of it that I didn’t like, like having been around some lowly leveled towns with druggies and drunks. But there have been an awful lot of ups as well, I love it’s scenery, I love how it isn’t billboard haven like the places I’ve moved to have had and I liked the small communities. As well as my state being a very progressive state too. If only it’d correct it’s affordability problem, I would have loved to return there.
Two, the changing of the internet. I’ve been online for over 27 years now. It is depressing to watch it all devolve into a corporate marketing playground with so many subscriptions nagging you. I’ve had to watch so many good places shut down because of these increasing pressures of these changes affecting them. People I’ve known online, are either gone due to the sands of time or that they’ve passed away that I didn’t realize until I get second or third hand information about it. It used to all be a rich and fulfilling experience. But every time I use the internet now, it feels shallower and shallower. If the internet were to suddenly up and vanish in maybe the next 5 minutes, I wouldn’t complain. I’d just bow out and feel that we’ve done all that we’ve done.
Lastly, having to oust a friend of 5 years tenure for showing sympathy to pedophiles. They brought a lot of positivity and wholesomeness to my life during my time with them. We were even in a group with others that shared silliness and good times. But the past year it has been nothing but just senseless debates and one of which ended up them coming out as a pedo sympathizer which was something I just couldn’t accept because of my experiences having been entangled with pedos and dealing with them and their illogical worldview on how they see minors.
