Half of the time I look forward to my death, it doesn’t scare me since I don’t see the real point of my life, what scares me is if my agony would be slow and painful.
But then what? I just stop existing and it’s like I fell asleep? Do I see light? Darkness? Nothing? What is nothing?
I think its like being anesthesized or a high dose of nitrous, consciousness slowly fades away, its a bit trippy, can be scary, and then youre gone. Depends on the circumstances though, some deaths are probably a lot quicker than others and you wouldnt feel a thing.